Friday, November 29, 2013

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Lately I've been struggling a lot with weakness. With doubt and uncertainty. I need Christ's power more than ever to overcome these fears. That's really all I have to say today. It is a constant struggle to let go of my inhibitions and find full rest in his providence, and right now I feel like I'm sinking.

Monday, September 23, 2013

Log 2: Meditations on Psalm 42

As a deer pants for flowing streams, 
so pants my soul for you, O God.
My soul thirsts for God,
for the living God.

I came across this verse in Psalm 42 tonight, and it really struck a chord with me. The passion from David's pen is remarkable! Water is a necessity of life; anyone who has ever experienced the anguish of prolonged thirst knows how much they desire it in that moment. The Psalmist compares the need for one of life's most base elements to his desire for God. To me, this beautifully illustrates how passionate his heart was for the Lord. How many of us can say we need God as much as we need water? Do we ever go a day without it? I know, for myself, there have been many days that I have neglected God's word, as well as prayer time with Him. Not proud of it! And yet, on those very same days, I never neglected to fill myself a glass of water.

Jesus Christ said, “‘Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.’” (Matt. 4:4)

My meditation tonight is that nothing in life should bring me the satisfaction and fulfillment that Christ gives. Not work, hobbies, family, friends, entertainment, money, books, music, or any other thing. I have found myself often craving for these things more than I should; dedicating hours to friends or entertainment to the neglect of God and His word. It's truly a commitment and a continued growing process. As the Spirit moves in our lives, while we surrender our hearts to Him, He will slowly, miraculously, wondrously mold and shape all of our cravings. So that, we can boldly say with King David that God's word is our "meditation all the day." (Ps. 119:97)

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

It is no bad thing to celebrate a simple life.

Not going to lie here-- I'm a Lord of the Rings nerd. This had to come out at some point in the blog. A few groans are heard around the family (along with fewer murmurs of agreement) when I insist on hanging the map of NĂºmenor above my desk, or when I add another volume of the Histories of Middle earth to my bookshelf. Tolkien's world fascinates me with its broad, sweeping history, races, lands, languages, and stories. The vastness is almost never-ending.
Zoom into this world with a microscope and you'll land on the Shire, a small region in the North-western corner of Middle earth. It is a quaint green country with close resemblance to rural Ireland, England, or New Zealand. The little people who live there are called Hobbits. I'll spare you a lecture. In a word, they are a unique race because they have no kingdoms; no Kings, Queens, Knights, or lords and ladies. They govern themselves, living peaceably in small homes burrowed in the ground and cultivating the bounty of the land.
J.R.R. Tolkien had a particular fondness for Hobbits, and it seems I do too. This may be an attraction to the concept more than anything else. There is something so pure about a life where community is close, family is closer, and the small beauties of the world enjoyed and celebrated in innocence and fervor.


This reminds me of my latest study in Church history-  the Puritans. The Puritans are in no way related to Hobbits, I'll assure you (insert laugh track) but my considerations on the simple life reminded me not only of them, but of something important I read lately:

I Thess. 4:10-11 But we urge you, brothers, to do this more and more, 11 and to aspire to live quietly, and to mind your own affairs, and to work with your hands, as we instructed you, 12 so that you may walk properly before outsiders and be dependent on no one.

This verse isn't urging us to keep to ourselves to the neglect of helping and blessing others. That assumption would be entirely contrary to the spirit of Christianity. Rather, it is instructing us to live a peaceable life, not relying on others for our welfare (no pun intended), but rather working with our hands and relying on the Father for the meeting of our daily needs.

I find the Puritans so inspiring for many reasons. I'm reading a book called A Quest for Godliness by J.I. Packer. It is fascinating. Even though I haven't yet managed to get too far in the pages, already I'm pulled in with no chance of return. In this important study Packer points out several reasons why the world of Christendom would benefit from looking back at the Puritans for inspiration, renewal, and revival. Some of these reasons are outlined as follows:
1. The integration of their daily lives.
The Puritans did not create a disjunction between the sacred and secular. Every activity was integrated for the single purpose of honouring God. 
2. The quality of their spiritual experience.
The Puritans 
understood that people are creatures of the thought, affection, and will. They took deliberate steps in keeping these three components under the control of the Spirit. They practiced discursive and systematic meditation, always keeping the word of God close to their hearts through reading and memorizing. 
3. Their passion for effective action. 
The Puritans had no time for the idleness of the passive, apathetic, idle person who leaves it to others to change the world. They longed to be effective change agents for God. Cromwell and his army made toilsome prayers before each battle, and preachers prayed long and hard in the pulpits. They asked God to enable them to use their powers, not for their own glory, but for the furthering of His Kingdom.
4. Their program for family stability. 
"The Puritan ethic of home life was based on maintaining order, courtesy, and family worship. Goodwill, patience, consistency, and an encouraging attitude were seen as the essential domestic virtues."
The Puritans were aware of the impact their family would have on the succeeding generations, and that drove them to paying diligent heed to raising up godly men and women of valor. Parenting was viewed as a mission- not the burdensome, tedious task the Western world sees it as today. 
5. Their sense of human worth
"The Puritans' appreciation of man's dignity as the creature made to be God's friend was strong, and so in particular was their sense of the beauty and nobility of human holiness."They also maintained a balanced idea of our fallen nature's depravity and unholiness, and thus knew that our ability to please God through any earthly merit is entirely impossible.

As I endeavor to more fully study the Puritan vision of the Christian life, I do warn myself against falling into hero worship. It is all too easy to do. The Puritans had a fallen nature too, and The Bible is all-sufficient for our daily lives. We need not emulate the Puritans jot for jot, but there is a wealth of rich truth to be gleaned from them. I am inspired by men like Thomas Goodwin, John Bunyan, Jonathan Edwards, and John Knox-- who had huge hearts on fire for God.
Though many of these men and women lived their lives in simplicity and quiet devotion, but there is no end to the influence they had over the Church. 

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Log #1: scheduling

Lately I've been trying to get into a schedule. 
That's right. A schedule. Routine. One of those things where you wake up in the morning and say to yourself, "Okay, I have to do at last a dozen things in a particular order today. Read the Bible. Pray. Breakfast. Coffee. Study. Coffee. Teach lessons. Walk three miles. Coffee. Help mom with dinner. Coffee. Sweep the music room and organize 100 loose sheets of music. Coffee."
This is just a rough outline of what a normal day in my life looks like, give or take one or two details (like breakfast and sweeping). But in all seriousness, I've been benefited greatly from this practice. Even though I'm a spontaneous person by nature and loathe being tied down to tight schedules (not that this is tight), it has given me incentive and motivation to ACTUALLY finish every task I intend to do. Often my intentions are merely nice ideas. "I need to organize my sheet music" will run through my mind at least as many times as there are loose sheets, unless I decide with great intentionally and emphasis that I will get to this, and soon. So anyway, I trust this resolve to scheduling will last longer than the others, because I've committed it to a lot of prayer and Spirit guidance. And so far I start each morning with this awesome fresh perspective and incentive to get everything done. It's been amazing, in a word. More details on my success (or lack thereof) later.

Saturday, September 14, 2013

From the top

Greetings, fair strangers. I feel the need to start a blog again. It can be edifying & helpful to document spiritual insight as well as life struggles and triumphs. I've run a few blogs through the years, but unfortunately most of them have fallen by the wayside (only to add to my growing list of unfinished projects) because I'm not great with keeping logs. Hopefully this little blog will manage to live on-- only time will tell!

In a word, lately God has been moving a lot in my life. And after considering all this, I pondered, "why not write it down?" I want to glorify Him through sharing his word, wonders, & works, and maybe along the way I will manage to encourage a few others too.